As I write this, I am about to move to my own place - the second time in less than six months. The past half year of my life has been a whirlwind. An amazing whirlwind, but a whirlwind nonetheless! Now that everything is settling down a little more, I finally found the time and peace of mind to write a blogpost again...
I haven't allowed myself any time to get back to blogging these past months. I've been having some great ideas and dreams for a little while now, but I'm an all or nothing kind-of girl and honestly, I just couldn't find the time to put those thoughts on paper. I am back in the Netherlands now since six weeks already, and in that time secured myself a place of my own in Utrecht, as well as a new job. And even though these are already pretty big things, it's not even the best thing that has happened to me since I've been back (believe it or not).
Since I aspire to be a writer, negative situations and emotions are often a good thing. They give inspiration and power to write about hidden layers in someone's personality. To look beyond the surface is to create a powerful piece of writing: often the most interesting and beautiful things are hidden in the implicit.
And since I am a very sensitive person, I have such emotions running through me quite often. However, since the time when the sun was still shining and my shorts were still worn often (a.k.a. summer), I also got to know the other side of that sensitivity. I got to know a love so powerful it is almost surreal. A love which writes like a cheesy, Hollywood film with a never-ending happy ending (hopefully ;). A love which connects me to an amazing man in a way it feels our souls are tied together with an invisible rope - even at the distance we find ourselves.
It's interesting how so much (positive) chaos in my life can bring such a clear mindset: I want to write. I have so many ideas in my head and I am finally in a period in my life that I can sit down and (hopefully) make them work. Which is why I am loving the fact I'm blogging again, I seriously missed it ! I have grown so much as a person in these past couple of months, and I can't wait to start growing as a writer too.
If there's one thing I have learned during my stay in Canada and the chaotic month after is that life is a continuous exploration of one self. We never stop learning, or experiencing. There is never a time where you can say: this is me, and I'll stay that way. Everything and everyone is constantly moving, and changing. And that's a remarkable thing. You don't have to be the person you were yesterday, or the one you'll aim to be tomorrow. That's the beauty of life: when you follow your heart, life will catch up on YOU. This is how I decide to live my life, every day, and I'm going to take you guys on this journey with me again :)